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09 December 2011

AWAY FOR CHRISTMAS


This story is as relevant today as when I wrote it many years ago. Yesterday I read it at the WI's Christmas meeting and I could tell by the faces that many had experienced the torment of having children or grandchildren serve in the armed forces. With Christmas heading our way I thought it an opportune time to show this again.

AWAY FOR CHRISTMAS

The magnolia-painted window-sill in the hotel bedroom was wide enough for Hilary Barnes to sit with her legs drawn to her chest, arms encircling her knees in a pose reminiscent of dreamy childhood days. The room itself possessed a charm that reminded her of the house she grew up in, but the view through the window was as bleak as her state of mind. It was Ted's idea to come away for Christmas, declaring that their house would be lonely and far too depressing. She was equally depressed here, even the virgin snow shrouding the fields and hanging from the branches of an elderly oak did nothing to cheer her. It only served to remind her of Greg's childhood love of coasting down the road on a makeshift sledge, annoying neighbours with his spirited yells of pure joy.

‘I'll be home before you know it,’ he said when he rang to break the news.

Would he? Or would he be maimed or killed.

She stared through the window, looking beyond her own reflection at the white hedgerow where houses now glowed, transformed by fairy lights twinkling in the descending gloom.

Christmas Eve. It wasn't a time for sadness, but how could she not be sad when Greg's regiment was this very day flying to war zones, where God only knew what might transpire. She ran a finger over a slat in the wooden shutter, suddenly driven to check the whole thing for dust as though some sort of action would make things right.

Then, for the first time, anger swelled within her and she pounded the shutter with her fist. How dare they whisk a young man into danger without any regard for his tender age. She sucked her knuckle, grateful for the hurt yet moderately stronger for having released some of her fury. In the corridor, the maid loaded her trolley with discarded glasses; remnants of celebrations. Hilary wiped her hand on her plaid skirt. Maybe tomorrow would be better, by then Greg would be installed in new barracks. However, no matter how long he was to serve there, she would never become accustomed to her teenage son being in the firing line.

The snow fell steadily during the night and by morning the landscape was an unsullied wonderland. Christmas Day. A day of celebration. A day to give thanks for life's blessings.

Hilary contemplated the white world, seeing a young couple trudging arm-in-arm along the lane, heading towards the church, two enthusiastic little girls following behind, slipping and sliding in fur-topped boots, their laughter-lit faces encompassed by red-striped pompom hats, matching scarves taking wing as they scampered in the drifts. As she watched, she had an urge to attend a Christmas service, to sing carols with Ted at her side, to pray for Greg and plead for his safekeeping.

Ted needed no persuading. As soon as she mentioned her intention, he opened the wardrobe and took out their coats. 'Let's get there early,' he said as he helped her into the yellow sheepskin. Understanding her need he made no mention of her customary absence of spiritual leanings.

Outside the hotel, Ted took her arm, guided her down the drive, circling the frozen fishpond and passing between barricades of newly-cleared snow until they reached the wrought-iron gates. Five minutes later they walked into the ancient parish church. It was alive with the atmosphere of Christmas. The grey stone walls were festooned with holly, an elaborately-carved pulpit decorated with berry-laden foliage. A colossal Christmas tree dominated one corner, adorned with gold and silver baubles, shimmering tinsel, and a gold star at the top. Hilary could smell the pine even from where she stood. To the right of the tree, reverent children viewed a glorious nativity display, quietly uttering ooh's and ah's as each one pointed to something of note.

Hilary and Ted slid into a side pew behind the buzzing congregation. Hilary breathed in, enjoying the sting of cool air entering her lungs, for her insides were aglow with the character of her surroundings, and she wondered why her inaugural Christmas Day worship had taken so long to achieve.

During the ceremony she joined in the carols and intently listened to sermons and messages. She prayed with others for compassion, for liberation, and good will, as well as for Greg and his colleagues somewhere in a distant war-torn country.

With the closing carol sung, she felt in her pocket for her sheepskin gloves. A few couples rose to depart, but the minister held up his hand and they sat down again.

A small group advanced towards the altar as the minister announced that a christening was to take place; he invited the congregation to attend. Hilary nudged Ted and looked at him enquiringly. He nodded and smiled, and squeezed her hand.

The christening was soon over, a quiet service which could barely be heard at the back. After a final hymn, the minister toured the entire church with the child in his arms, her fingers clutching the stole around his neck, her shawl draping the front of his surplice, her residence in his arms making him beam with pride as he introduced her to everyone as Christine Beverley Anne.

'How do you do,' Hilary said, when it was her turn to be presented, automatically reaching out to move the dribble-damp shawl from the baby's chin. Christine Beverley Anne transferred her grip to the minister's immaculate surplice and, as the baby gurgled, Hilary began privately to celebrate Christ's birth, as they were glorying in the birth of this baby, as she and Ted did at the christening of their only child. In that instant she knew that Greg would return unharmed. Through this small being Jesus had decreed that it would be so.

Blindly, as the baby was carried away, charged with a sense of supreme well-being Hilary groped for Ted's hand. 'All will be well,' she whispered as a quivering smile crept over her face.

Ted put his arm around her shoulders. 'He'll be home soon, like he promised.' And with that he gently hauled her to her feet. 'Lunch calls,' he said. 'Presents to open.'

For the first time since Greg's worrying phone call, she felt happy. Not only that, she was suddenly hungry for the Christmas festivities, the repast which the hotel predicted would be the best ever tasted, the Queen's speech, a quiz before tea, and, later on, a fancy-dress ball. Leaning sideways, she kissed Ted's cheek. 'Merry Christmas, my dear. And to Greg, too.'


07 December 2011

If only people would stop and think.....

A recent court case in this country (read about it here) concerned a woman who was told she could not visit her 78 year old mother since the old lady had had a stroke and would be unable to recognise or communicate with her daughter. The article went on to say that the daughter was deprived “of the opportunity to speak with her mother before they were separated forever by death”.

This story disturbed me. It took me right back 50 years, to the year my Dad died. Believe me he was far too young to die and it broke my heart because I had been unable to say goodbye.


When Dad had a severe heart attack we discovered that certain valves in his heart had collapsed. After a period of hospitalization he was given strong medication and sent home with the warning that under no circumstances was he to get stressed. He was to be kept quite and calm. In those days medical science was not as advanced as it is today so there was little hope that he would survive.

I was married and living away, without any access to the house. Mom had taken my house keys the day I left and never gave them back. Consequently I had to knock the door or ring the bell whenever I called to see my father. Mom continued to work, leaving Dad alone in the house.

One day I called at a time when I thought Mom would be at home, only to find a note on the front door which read ‘SICKNESS, DO NOT DISTURB. PLEASE DO NOT RING OR KNOCK THE DOOR.’ The back of the house was also locked and bolted. You can imagine my dilemma.

Trying to suppress my anger I went away to ponder on what to do next. The telephone had been put out of bounds to outside callers because it was felt that Dad might be anxious to get to the phone before it stopped ringing which could cause some anxiety.

A plan was devised. I wrote a letter to tell Dad that I would ring at a certain time and that I would use a three-ring code so he would know it was me. It worAdd Imageked. Twice.

I expressed my disappointment that I couldn’t just call to see him but all he said was ‘You know what your mother’s like’. I did, I also thought her new rules were way over the top.

As I said above, I managed two phone appointments before he passed away. He died alone and I wasn’t there to say goodbye. Just like the article, it was forbidden!

Even though I frequently told myself that it was done ‘for the best’ I have never fully got over the fact that I wasn’t there for my father. Indeed, no-one was there for him. So sad.

05 December 2011

Trust Not The Vow ... Chapter 7


Days drifted into months and Cynthia Mates' courting days were coming to an end. In two months' time she would be marrying Curtis, a wedding which promised to be the talk of the neighbourhood, not to mention the factory. Witnessing Cynthia's nervous excitement and scared that she would collapse from mental exhaustion, Rachel was driven to allocate her spare time to helping with the arrangements. Time she had plenty of with Gary away. Today, with Eric out of the office, they had the whole day free of interference in which to plan and prepare. They had rushed through yesterday's dockets and submitted them to the Accounts Section, and Rachel had typed and posted yesterday's letters.

Seated at her desk, an eternal Benson and Hedges on the go, Cynthia studied the clutter of paper before her, sighing and lamenting over how long it was taking to do even the simplest task.

‘Like what?’ questioned Rachel.

‘Like trying to decide what time to book the hairdresser on the day.’

It was a decision only she could make, Rachel decided, giving her attention to the list she held in her hand. Beneath the heading Church Flowers, Cynthia had drawn four columns headed Lych-gate, Pews, Lectern, and Altar. To Rachel's way of thinking decorating a lych-gate was insane, an unnecessary expense on top of all the other wild features Cynthia had dreamed up, like a red carpet and master of ceremonies. Cynthia's folks would be destitute by the end of the proceedings. Not daring to peep at the florist's estimate stapled to the back, Rachel pencilled in what she considered would be sufficient posies to decorate the pews.

Privately she envied Cynthia. After months of cutting out fat and sugar her own weight had reduced by just under two stone. Visualising Cynthia sashaying down All Saints' aisle in the glorious pearly white dress, wearing long gloves and high heeled satin shoes, she craved the day when it would be her turn. For two weeks she had been secretly sewing a blue garter for Cynthia to wear and already had it marked as a borrowed item for her own wedding. Whenever that might be!

‘Reckon I'd be okay in those shoes we saw?’ Cynthia enquired. ‘I don't want to look taller than Curtis.’

Rachel reassured her. They were only a fraction higher than the ones she was wearing, which was as high as she dared go otherwise she would tower over her bridegroom. Being on the dumpy side Curtis looked shorter than he really was, a fact which continually worried Cynthia and made Rachel curious as to the extent of her friend's love for her chosen partner.

Cynthia extended a shapely leg to examine the heel of her blue suede court. ‘I hope you're right,’ she said. ‘I'll buy them at the weekend, if you're sure.’ She fingered the hire shop's price list, scanning the details of their wedding apparel. ‘I trust Gary will soon be able to go with Curtis to get measured for his suit.’

‘Of course he will.’ Rachel had been thrilled when Curtis invited Gary to be best man, confident the occasion would sway him into taking the plunge. Judging by his absences over recent weeks she doubted he would have time to attend the ceremony, let alone visit the hire shop. However, she could hardly say as much to Cynthia; it would be unethical to add weight to her anxieties.

Suddenly brightening, Cynthia announced: ‘We've had two presents already. Both toasters, would you believe. You'll be all right for toast if you come to supper. One does two slices and the other four, which makes six, so if Gary comes too ....’

They burst out laughing, and tried to outdo each other with suggestions like halving, quartering and dicing to make six slices stretch to eight, sixteen and twenty-four.

‘Have you completed your gift list?’ Rachel asked when the pain in her side lessened. She’d been round the factory badgering for contributions, because Cynthia wanted cut glass and that necessitated several trips to Birmingham; she only had so many surplus hours at her disposal.

Cynthia stopped sucking the end of her pen. ‘I'm ploughing through the mail order catalogue, noting things I can ask for.’ Seeing Rachel's stricken face, she went on, ‘Don't look so horrified, I haven't included three-piece suites. Shall I look out for something for old scar neck while I'm at it?’

She was referring to Eric Hudspith, who sported a jagged scar below his left ear. Often they had sought to determine what had happened to him, their inventive minds speculating about a gangland attack, a subway mugging, or an overly wicked wife.

‘We could get him a clock,’ suggested Cynthia.

‘He won't need to know the time once he's retired.’

Hearing the Managing Director's voice outside the office door, Rachel hastily stuffed her list in the drawer, but with more to hide Cynthia was not quite so swift. Rachel darted to assist just as James Provost walked in.

‘Good afternoon, ladies.’

‘Good afternoon, Mr Provost,’ they chorused.

Peering at Cynthia's wedding lists, the Managing Director selected one. ‘Gift List,’ he read. ‘You're wise to register some ideas. Shall I add my own?’ Without waiting for Cynthia's reply, he pulled a gold pen from his top pocket and uncapped it. He began to write.

Rachel strove to keep from smirking. He might be a mind-reader, arriving at the precise moment they were discussing Eric Hudspith, but the stupid man was scribbling on Cynthia's private list.

When he finished writing, James Provost straightened, recapped his pen. He submitted the sheet to Cynthia. ‘There you are,’ he said. ‘My contribution. Management will naturally make the final choice, but your suggestions will be borne in mind. Meanwhile, you might consider purchasing your own farewell memento.’

Seeing him turn to go, Rachel hastily queried the specific reason for his visit. It would be too awful if he departed minus whatever it was he came for.

Looking over his spectacles, he replied sourly, ‘Wake up, girl. What do you imagine I've been doing since I came in?’

Rachel reddened and fixed her eyes on the desk until he left the room. ‘Pig!’ she cried, hurling a Bakelite dish of paperclips at the metal door.

Cynthia chuckled. ‘Good aim, pet, but a trifle late. You should have thrown it before the door closed. Mind, I'd like to have seen your face if he came back in and copped it on the chest.’

Sitting at her desk, fingering the corner of her blotting pad, Rachel sulked; her annoyance prevented her from seeing the incident's funny side.

Cynthia lit a cigarette and attempted to decipher Mr Provost's scrawl. ‘Cor, blimey,’ she muttered, then issued a loud chortle.

Rachel took no notice and kept her head lowered.

‘Look at this,’ Cynthia said in a voice wobbly with amusement. Racked with silent mirth, she handed Rachel the pile of papers, jabbing a red-tipped finger at the one on the top which now contained sundry items appropriate for a man's retirement. Mr Provost had entered on Cynthia's wedding list: a miniature organ, fishing tackle, vice and workbench, and a garden hammock.

One look at Cynthia's face sent Rachel into a paroxysm of laughter. Gripping pains circled her middle, over which her encompassing arms had no control. Wet faced, the two friends rocked, hooted, and guffawed, desisting only to acknowledge Gary Ellison's arrival with strangled, welcoming words.

(to be continued)